I had gone along to my 13-week scan and it went well; the baby was healthy. I started to feel at ease. I’d had a miscarriage before but now I was getting out the danger period and was going into my 2nd trimester.
Just three days after my scan, my partner and I had another argument about one of his friends. My partner pushed me and I fell really hard on the wooden floor. I found myself back at the hospital; I was scared and worried about the baby. At the hospital I was scared to say I was pushed, so I found myself lying and saying that I slipped on the floor. I was taken up to early pregnancy. They did tests and another scan and the baby was doing fine, which I was so relieved about. After this incident, I made the choice to separate. The break up didn’t go well. I started receiving texts which were nasty, saying I would get run over. |
On my way to the next appointment, I was being sick all the way to the hospital. I was taken round into a room with a bed and toilet. I couldn’t stop being sick. The nurse came in and gave me tablets to dissolve in my mouth, but I kept being sick every time I put them in my mouth. About two hours later still nothing had happened apart from being sick. In the early afternoon, I started to experience some light cramps. Then it started to become worse. I could hardly walk and had to crawl into the bathroom. I eventually managed to get back onto the bed which I was bent over. I realised I was having contractions. The pain was unreal I was sweaty but shaking with cold. I managed to reach the buzzer for a nurse. She came in and looked. I asked for a blanket. She said, "laying there ain’t going to help."
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'I FELT I WAS LIVING IN MY VERY OWN NIGHTMARE,
BUT THIS WAS REAL LIFE AND IT WAS MINE.' |